I’m going through a profound transformation. Everything I thought I knew is dissipating as I learn to surrender control more and more. I can be a perfectly clear, loving, non-judgmental, divine space for others, especially clients … but still struggle to release attachment to my partner/family and heavily judge myself. Read more about how I can now laugh at all of it and change my life.
I Change My Life For The Better
As I get closer and closer to myself, I realize how very, very far away I have been. Sometimes, I can’t even find me, things are so different now.
The me I knew I had defined as
- overachiever, and
- I was so f*king proud of those labels.
They meant, I was someone that someone could love.I was taught if I achieve, perform, or create success, I will be loved and rewarded. It's bullshit. Click To Tweet
I’ve had coaching, therapy and other a wild rides with energy healing, Access Bars Consciousness, breathwork and others.
There Is Pain … and There Is Joy
I have this beautiful experience of life happening right now. I’m so open. I’m willing to feel and release it all. It seems … learning to do that with non judgment seems to be the name of the game right now.
We bought a board game and bouncy ball at target. We play with the ball on our nightly walks. It makes me sweaty and I feel like we are a couple of little kids, running around, throwing, catching and volleying this huge bouncy ball. My son joined us once. It was so much fun.There is pain, and there is joy. It's all in there. In the crevices... and we can hold and ignore it, or express and feel it. Click To Tweet
I’ve spent most of my personal life tight, contracted and controlled. It hasn’t served me, or anyone. It isn’t love.
In my energy release work, some interesting stuff came up around love… my conscious brain wasn’t really there for it… but I feel it in my core. This lifetime, for me, is about learning true, unconditional, Christ-like love.
Stop Trying to Be Perfect to Create Change In My Life
The total opposite of manipulation, control, fixing things, compartmentalizing, trying to be perfect or make life happen.
My mantra today is, “don’t make life happen, let life happen.”
I’m sure many people know this…. but, I also suspect quite a few have enjoyed being in denial too, like I was for 36 years…. this journey has been incredible. It’s almost hard to judge how far I’ve come…. but judging isn’t what I’m up to today… so who cares about that?
I’m learning to laugh at all of it. Laugh at the ridiculous stories we make up. Laugh At the fact that we think this shit is real… laugh at how serious we take it…
It’s actually so easy.
Just Play, Laugh and Love
Just play, laugh, love, enjoy yourself, look for and find the joy in everything, connect to nature, your pets, your friends, your loves, family, friends, God and yourself. Run around. Be silly. Jump in a puddle, throw a ball, run in the rain, watch a sunset, allow yourself awe. Dance, run, jump, sing, draw, color, doodle, daydream, create, build, dig, plant and send your friends a selfie or call them.
- Don’t stop moving.
- Eat colors
- Stop thinking
- Start feeling
- Tap into your body’s wisdom
- Make compassion and love your life’s mission/work
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Over the years, I have been a serial learner and practitioner, taking in information about psychology, religion, spirituality, science, medicine, quantum physics, relationships, parenting, and overall, general happiness and work-life balance. I’ve been fascinated in what it takes to and have created my life of pure joy, happiness, balance and peace. It is my mission to spread what I have learned and practiced to you in ways that are simple, easy to understand AND implement. I have served people in achieving realignment in their bodies, relationships and purpose for over 20 years. If you liked this article, and you want to read more, please visit one of the links below:
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